Old Car

The rear main bearing was installed upside-down
starving the cam of oil and of course seizing the crank solid
I broke the engine down this morning and dragged the pieces off to the
men with the big machines to have their way with them
They will come back to me clean but
tonight my nailbeds are grey
stiff jeans and my
white shirt shows a spray of oil across the belly
The gash in my forearm goes right through the
tattoo and there's a flash of pink meat underneath
which makes everything feel real and alright

I rode my bicycle home from the shop and spent the evening
rolling around on the front grass with my sons
They are gorgeous creatures
They are gorgeous creatures
I keep falling asleep with my eyelids fluttering
dreaming about driving the old car again